I’m having a hard time dealing with our situation now. Most of the time, I feel like I made a mistake. But sometimes, I think it’s the right thing to do for us right now. There’s something inside of me that I just can’t express. I know that I want to cry.. I feel like there’s a river of tears inside of me waiting to fall into my eyes. But I really really want to cry out my feelings. Maybe I can’t express my sadness because it’s him who i want to talk to. Because whenever i hear his voice, i feel like I can tell him anything, I can cry, laugh, whatever. Whenever I talk to him, I feel like everything i gonna be okay. But now that he’s the reason of my sadness right now.. I don’t know how will I handle it…. or if I can handle it. :|